R e v a m p e d

Killer at the Drive In

2006-09-01T21:06:00.000-07:00

he trembles
he falls under her mercy

shes just who she is
nothing more beyond that hollow exterior

she kills him
again ang again

he's too dazed to even feel
its his time to kill

a shot fired

she starts to feel cold

colder than these eyes
eyes that speak of it all
eyes that see the silence
of a nuclear bomb about to kick in fast

she falls
she falls

at least he hopes so
for now.

Magnanakaw

2005-06-09T09:36:00.000-07:00

itong gabi nalulunod sa iyong mundo
hindi maka ahon tulungan mo ako
saltik ng sakit na kay pait
sa katotohanan mata'y pinipikit

hininga'y untiunting nauubos
napapagod
isa lang minimithi

pagibig mong walang bahid ng kasinungalingan
ako'y iyong kulayan
dahil damdamin ko'y sawa na paglaruan
ipadama sakin ang kaligtasan

ibigay mo sakin
kung sino ako
tamang nalimot ko na
ang pagkatao ko

sa ilalim ng buwan at mga bituin
mga ulap at ang ihip ng hangin
ang siyang tanging saksi
sa ngiting nakabalot sa atin

walang saysay ang katotohanan

sa kanya ka
at hindi akin
ninakaw mo ang puso ko
sana ibigay mo ang iyo

sapagkat

tamang nalimot ko na ang pagkatao ko
sino ako

sino na ako

Deathrow of Hearts

2005-05-12T07:04:00.000-07:00

he bleeds endlessly
he made up his mind and says
"i will love you from afar"
he meant it more that words could say

he can't hurt her
he can't touch her

she does not deserve him
he was hell
he gave her 3 shots in the head
stabbed her gentle heart

marinated in his own blood
he weeps silently and says
"i will love you from afar"
he meant it more than words can say

he can't win her
he can't kill her

say goodbye
dig him a shallow grave
pray for him tonight

he spends the rest of his life
clouded by remorse
hiding in these shadows
where darkness is a comfort
where pain can feast on his immortal heart

that is what he deserves

Vampire

2005-05-11T06:51:00.000-07:00

something is amiss
and out of place

when mice with wings
can wear a human face

Symphony of the heart

2005-05-06T05:10:00.000-07:00

My broken heart is on the pavement
unspoken words are left unsaid
the feeling has gone astray
is this the end

long lonely nights unable to sleep
my mind just keeps on thinking

where have you gone
please dont leave tommorow left undone

noise from this silence is deafning
and keeps me from sleep
i am left with nothing but
a heart tattred and torn
with its broken pieces on the floor

Strings of the Puppet Princess

2005-04-29T12:23:00.000-07:00

strings from a criscross of wood
tied to his arms, feet, and his smile
she does what she could

moves him
plays with him

strings in his heart
are strummed by her songs

she moves him as she desires
laughs
and leaves him behind

she plays with him as she desires
he then breaks into pieces
she panics, she's lost and lonely

he was broken
she was broken
they both deserved it
we both deserve it

The Rain and Her Smile

2005-04-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

i saw the rain and rushed outside
i danced and spun in circles like a child
feeling every drop of rain

suddenly i stopped and sat on the pavement
i stared at the drops of rain and realized that soon it will stop raining
and i will miss these droplets

i want to see her so badly is hurts
i want to dance under the rain beside her
but the space between us keeps me from all the things i hope for

but i know that she's in my heart
all i have to do is close my eyes
search inside
and there she is

smiling back at me

I Will Run Away With You

2005-04-26T15:17:00.000-07:00

So I close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side

kuchilyo

2005-04-25T08:55:00.000-07:00

mga salitang humihiwa
bakit ka ganyan
ang talim ng iyong mga salita

malang nabigla ka
hindi ko naman sinasadya
paumanhin

hindi ko lang matiis na ganyan ka
at yan ang iniisip mo
dagdag lang ako sa iyong magulong mundo

saksakin mo ako ng iyong mga salita
mas gugustuhin ko pang pumanaw
kaysa ako ang maging sanhi ng iyong lungkot
paumanhin
paumanhin

umaagos ang dugo ko para sa iyo
sana alam mo
ikaw ang lahat ng rason ko
rason kung bakit ako ganito

ang sakit ng mga salita mo
ang sakit ng mga salita mo

On My Knees

2005-04-25T07:08:00.000-07:00

Isabel

who am I to you
who am I

Cupkeyk

2005-04-22T04:58:00.000-07:00

I miss my cupkeyk

Cupkeyk ko!!!!!!!

The Funeral

2005-04-20T17:02:00.000-07:00

karma struck.

I pushed away the only girl i cared for. yes, and i know that it was my fault. me and my fucked up ego. And now i throw my hands in the faucet and wash them away from a face i never held, and i drown myself in a reign of questions, you thought me everything but you never thought me how to swim...

the sky is caving in...
the floor is getting thick...

i never asked anything from you, but still i love you from afar... unconditionaly, unwantingly, unselfishly, whole heartedly...

i stab my heart to kill this immortal feeling, and still it persits...

even after death...

i stare at my family and friends from above...
and i see we all wear black and white

Heart and Mind

2005-03-17T17:15:00.000-08:00

you hold me up high
then you pull me back down
are you sick in the head?

people have feelings
sometimes try to use your heart
and not your mind

you are amused, you enjoy
the reason you do what you do
is for you alone, i dont want to know

i have a heart
it says you

i have a mind
it says fuck you

but i'll stay...

2005-03-03T04:18:00.000-08:00

on love...
and regret...

An indescribable feeling...
you love a person yet you know no reason why??

I fell in love, and it was because of magic...
the only reason i can provide...
but i was stupid
so stupid that i said the wrong reasons, and pushed her away from me
because i was scared... scared that she might not understand me, scared because this feeling is so strong that its so hard to let go...
I was full of passion, hope, and fear... it was nice, the moment you see her eyes and hear the sound of her voice you feel a cold shiver down your spine... a feeling only someone magical can inflict to you. I loved everything about her! her laugh, her walk, her hair, her expressions, the way she talks, and most of all... her warm and kind soul.
its hard to accept things as they are right now, and somehow i still hope that someday it will be alright.
if God can grant me one wish, i will go back to that night and i will walk pass that place, and never walked tru that door and had that conversation. It hurts me even more when i know that what i have inside of me is real... and i really dont know why i said those words that changed my life...my smile...and my heart...
these bottles of spirits blanket me
these words cut like a knife... it turns me fuckin' insane
i have so much regret inside of me right now... and i think i need help.
my colours are fading, my sanity as well...

Laments of a Broken Heart

2005-01-05T10:48:00.000-08:00

i have seen it all
to the ground my heart falls
i need no pity
i need no tears

your name was once my comfort
now the sound of it brings me fear
consumed by sorrow
devoured by pain

laments of a broken heart
cries for peace
laments of a broken heart
i dont want this

i fade into the abyss
where i can find peace

to you i bid farewell
laments of this broken heart
shall fade as well

2004-11-20T10:59:00.000-08:00

rocking
rocking
rocking this chair

halt

and live one more day

Siomai and Pink

2004-11-13T08:09:00.000-08:00

siomai and pink!
at the table far away

i stare i look
i like!

Help Me Friend

2004-11-05T10:52:00.000-08:00

as you lay your head on my shoulder
i cant help it...

captivated by the smell of your hair
and the soft of your skin

the moment captured and kept...

help me!
help me!
help me to remeber
that you are my friend

because i might fall

and nobody will be there to catch me...

Angel in a Box

2004-11-01T05:10:00.000-08:00

inside this box waiting

where shadows are at home

at ease

calm and resting

inside this cell

searching for lost redemption

calling your name

silence speaks back

darkness blankets me

a ladder of slahes

covers my arm

bounded and broken

head in hand

in the corner of this box

a river of blood flows

and a scorched soul screaming

from these ashes

will spring

an angel with broken wings

Compact Disc

2004-10-30T13:20:00.000-07:00

round and round we go
you turn me inside out
round and round you know
im losing grip no doubt

i wont stop until you say so
sanity spills from a hole
hole in this fucked up mind
conquered by you and you alone...

Pitch Black Anima

2004-10-24T01:24:00.000-07:00

its all black
never ending shadows
where to go

finding the exit
stumbling
reaching for the door

it wont open
trapped
what is this place

screaming thoughts
restless
sinking into the abyss

something is amiss
and out of place
i picked up the answer

"Yesterday was the day i died"

False Hope

2004-10-22T19:05:00.000-07:00

give me false hopes
hold me

play with my heart
paint me

im your puppet
move me

your lightyears away
so kill me

Mundo sa Iyong Palad

2004-10-22T18:28:00.000-07:00

Pwede ba
tama na
nahihilo ako
dahil sayo

paikot ikot
dito sa munting mundo
tinatawag ang katapusan
ng bisyong ito

pilit inimulat
matang bulag
itim na pader
walang makita

sayong palad
akoy iyong pinapaikot
tapus ka na ba
o gusto mo pa

itigil mo na
wag na magsalita
mahal kita!
sana matapus na

The Art of Pain

2004-10-21T11:34:00.000-07:00

love from pain

skin sweats red

needle pierced to skin

addict

a reason for art

feelings twisted

a beautiful pain behold

Built to Kill

2004-10-21T05:19:00.000-07:00

i will kill you!
i will gut you alive!
you will never ever see the sun shine again
broken and lifeless
red river silence
mouth open
eyes stares for miles
deep sleep

sleep sweet

Silent Night

2004-10-20T08:44:00.000-07:00

oh so cold
oh so quite
oh my soul
fears the night

let me be
let me sleep
let my breath
sink down deep

fall down deep
fall into my sleep
devoured by fear
its you i hear

"oh its you again?!?!
yass! we meet once more!
this feels like heaven!
we'ved hang out before!
yass! i still remember...your that sweet nd funny gerl!
yass! i still remember...last night we were together!
happy!
oh so happy!
happy!
oh so happy!
what? why so soon?!?!
what? why can't i?!?!
what? fine, i'll open my eyes...
wake me up!
please wake me up!
it comes to an end
it does come to an end..."

oh so clear
oh so bright
oh the sun
casts away my fright

the fear of meeting her
the fear of longing for her
this fear will never stop

"coz she will haunt me again tonight..."

FireFly's Embrace

2004-10-19T13:52:00.000-07:00

come with me

to a place they will never see

u dont have to bring evrything

just a bag of hapiness

and a pair of wings

leave your problems behind

set your wories aside

we will be there in a blink of an eye

so come with me and fly

it feels so fuckin' good to know that u are

here u cast away my fear

i dont want to be alone

but i know soon it will end and this dream

it will fade away

how i wish you would

i wish you will stay

dont! dont go away....

no dont go!

and now i bid you goodbye and goodnight

the end is insight

hold me close

hold me tight

with this warm

embracewe shall set fireflies alfight

Will i do this for you?

2004-10-19T11:40:00.000-07:00

Im waiting here for a sign from you

and all that you give is enigmatic nonsense

im tired

im weary

but still i starve for more

i hate you!

i despise your ways!

and yet deep inside its you i starve for!

i hunger for!

i want, and need...

only you can take away this curse

and make it a gift...

u are in my heart

u are in my dreams

so tell me!

tell me!

will i wait for you???

coz my hope is danggling

hanging

on a spider web

i am in love...

and i cant do anything about it

This is insanity!

2004-10-19T11:20:00.000-07:00

im insane! come join me!